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Name: Kaye
Country: Philippines
Gender: Female
Interests: music, food (although i haven't managed to gain weight, thanks to my very fast metabolism combined with stress and fatigue), books, movies, travel, photography (although i lack practice and my skills are very rusty nowadays), people
Expertise: singing. and making mischief in the house. and driving people mad. and listening to troubled people. and being there for cancer patients. yeah, the last one isn't a joke. and being there for friends who happen to be cancer patients.
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  angel16kaye
MSN: angel_kaye16@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  angelwithoutwings16
Member Since:
7/6/2004
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| Since fall is approaching in the West, and I have been out of accessories for the longest time, AND I recently gave away my remaining materials for jewelry-making, I thought it was time to check out the mags and see the latest stuff so that I can make my own jewelry again.
I am finding interestingly cute stuff.
I'm also checking out materials that I can use because I'm getting tired of the ones they sell at the markets. I want some custom materials of my own, but I need to canvass the prices of the stuff I'll be needing to make my own materials.
I know I should be researching for my midterm paper in 191 right now, and for my thesis, but I can't help it... I feel so outdated that I just feel the need to check things out. I haven't picked up and read a recent fashion magazine in ages... I don't know, I think it's been more than a year already. And I just miss being updated.
So yes. I'm checking out stuff. I'll be making my own jewelry again. I don't even know why I took a break.
And this time, I'll try finishing my own line, so that I can also get some money out of it. Watch out for that. I swear I'll finish it this time.. (and I won't be so selfish anymore as to just use what I make for myself, haha).
Anyway, I'm off to the mall. Unfortunately, I won't be shopping for fun stuff. I'll be buying books for my thesis. Oh well. I have to fall back to Earth and realize that I do have to read up for my thesis proposal first.;p
PS. It's so funny. I just saw the "Rating" window and it's funny. Hehe.
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| Yes, I did say I would blog back here, but...
What I did instead was write private entries on my LJ. But the thing is, the reason I started blogging in the first place is because I want to learn to be open, and writing tons and tons of private entries that only my boyfriend can read isn't exactly being open, is it?
But see, the danger with being open is that people tend to misread you or take things personally. Like a friend of mine from the university. She's not exactly in trouble, but she's having an awkward time with the people from this particular institution because she was read (and misread) by someone on her blog, and they would not believe her explanation no matter how many times she explained it. They took her comments way too personally.
I don't want that to happen.
But for some reason, I came back here. I think the fact that not a lot of people know that this site is still up and running is one reason, although I do have one not-so-secret blog (if you know how to Google everything, you'll find it eventually) that has all public entries and no one reads them. AND my boyfriend doesn't know about that blog, so sometimes I rant about him there. Hihi. But seriously..
I am going back to the phase in my life where I don't trust people. The only people I trust now are those I've known for a long time, like my high school friends and my childhood friends, and my boyfriend, to a certain extent. And I know that while it is beneficial, it can also be a bad thing, because the more I distrust people, the more I become antisocial, and the more I become selfish. I don't want that. Unfortunately, certain events had led me back to my shell.
So yes, I am back here. I'll try to update as often as I can so I don't go crazy over my thesis (because right now it is driving me crazy for real), but I can make no promises.
And I just realized, I've been blogging for quite awhile now. I'm not sure my oldest blog is still alive though... Oh well.
That's it for now. I'll most probably still be writing more private entries in my LJ. But I'll be around here.
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| The long, long entry I typed the other day was deleted. *Screams NOOOOOoooooooo.....!*
Oh. Well. Anyway.
I'm up early. I know. Today's enrollment day.
And I will update later, I promise.
For now:
I welcome myself back to Xanga. I will explain the reasons later.
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| And life shall no longer be staple;
It will be nothing other than an option,
A choice which has less value.
And life shall not taste sweet,
Nor sour, not even the dreaded bitter -
It shall remain tasteless,
Undetectable to the tongue.
Death, too, is life - it is life's other side,
And it, too, shall lose its value
And not even the darkness will be appealing.
And life and death will both fade
Into a world where all feeling,
All sensation is suspended
And you will find yourself floating
In a limbo - not alive, not dead,
Unfeeling, just as always.
This will be your only choice.
Currently Listening: Damien Rice - Cannonball | | |
| There is no reason to fall -
Everything floats freely in space,
Lost in a trance and wandering off nowhere.
There is no gravity to pull me,
And no hands can reach me from where I am.
Yet slowly, surely,
I am sinking. My feet can touch the ground
for the first time, and then
Nothing.
I wake up from the dream
and realize I was not falling -
I was sinking on my own will.
Now I wonder if, when I reach the ground,
I will also find nothing
and will be alone, like always. Currently Listening: Mojofly - Mata | | |
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